Questioning Your Neurotype as an Adult: A Journey to Clarity

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By Sia Spark & Melanie Heyworth

For many of us, our journey with Autism (whether as parents, partners, friends, or allies of Autistic people) might prompt us to consider if we are Autistic too. If you have had moments of wondering if you, too, are Autistic, this article is for you. 

As we explore Autism, many of us begin to resonate with elements of the Autistic experience. We might begin to reassess our past through a lens of curiosity, seeing if Autism might explain or help us to understand our experiences. We might begin to question what we always held as “normal”. It might always have been your “normal” to develop a migraine at bright lights or strong smells, or to have deep, intense, all-consuming passions, or to struggle with large group socialising, or to feel a sense of great safety in having a consistent routine and expectations.

But when we begin to understand these as “Autistic normal” not necessarily “non-autistic normal”, we might question our own identity.

For many of us, we have also felt that we couldn’t be “Autistic enough” to be “really Autistic”, or perhaps we think our success (in work, relationships, or education) preclude us from being Autistic.

There may be some elements of our experience which don’t seem reflected in the experiences of the Autistic people we know and read about. Or maybe we’ve just learnt to mask (or bury our organic Autistic selves) so deeply that we’re not sure who we are or what our we might be like in different circumstances. 

These are all persistent thoughts that may stop us from seeking diagnosis or exploring our Autistic identity further. 

There are many reasons which might prompt us to query our identity. There are equally as many that undermine our efforts to find clarity around our identity.

Having questions about whether you’re Autistic or not doesn’t mean that you’re not Autistic! It might mean that…

  • The signs and characteristics aren’t obvious to the people around you – this might be because they are unaware of your experiences on a deeper level, or because they are neurodivergent themselves, so your traits seem commonplace and “normal” to them.
  • You’ve been misdiagnosed in the past with something that seemed to explain your challenges at that time (e.g., bipolar).
  • You have another diagnosis or diagnoses (e.g., ADHD, anxiety) that overlap with Autism in some way, so your Autistic identity has been missed or ignored.
  • You’ve learnt over your life to manage your Autistic needs yourself (or you have people in your life who have instinctively helped you to do so), so that your support needs haven’t been unmet.
  • You’ve learned coping or “masking” strategies that have meant that you’ve “buried” or suppressed your Autistic self and learnt to “pass” as neurotypical. 

Any or all of these things might be characteristic of your experience, and so your exploration of your identity needs to be shaped by these considerations too.

Even for those of us who feel strongly – who know! – that we are Autistic, formal diagnosis is a privilege and is not accessible to many of us. This might be because:

  • The financial and emotional cost of assessment is too high, or we have experienced other prohibitive factors to obtaining a diagnosis (e.g., medical trauma),
  • We do not have access to knowledgeable, informed, and respectful diagnosticians,
  • Our gender, race, culture, or other diangoses problematise our access to diagnosis and our presentation of Autism, or
  • We simply don’t feel that we need a formal diagnosis – our own clarity is enough!

There are many Autistic adults who are not formally diagnosed, and self-identifying as Autistic is as valid as having a “piece of paper” from a professional confirming that self-identification.

Finding clarity about your identity is a journey, and for some that journey is much longer than others. Exploring your identity with other late-identified Autistic people might be very enlightening for some, while others will prefer to be supported by a professional (whether or not they pursue formal diagnosis ultimately). Others again will want to internalise this journey by considering and weighing up their past with a possible Autistic lens by themselves, over time. For some, the epiphany will be so blinding and obvious that the knowledge of our Autistic identity will be quick and emphatic.

Whatever your journey, whatever your way, your journey of self-examination is an important way to find clarity about your identity. And that’s definitely a worthwhile pursuit.


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